The journey to uncover my authentic self led me to what I do now: share the power of Breathwork with others and create art.
For the better part of the past decade, I struggled dealing with an unfortunate sexual assault that happened when I was in college. It was something that I suppressed and thought if I didn't think about it, it would magically disappear.. but as I learned, it screwed my head and life up.
At the time, I was playing college football so football was my vehicle for being at peace. When I played, nothing else mattered and I was free from the incident on the field. But when football ended, I didn't have that thing to get my mind off what had happened. Couple that with the loss of an athletic identity and it was a recipe for disaster. I partied a lot, drank a lot, I was extremely unhappy... constantly trying to turn my brain off and check out from reality. This unhappiness and depression flared up multiple times over the past several years and I hid this from everyone.
Over time, the search to feel better led me to adopt a healthier lifestyle by moving to California. Then I found Jon Paul Crimi’s Breathwork class. If meditation is like soaking in a bath, Breathwork is like taking a powerwasher to your driveway for the first time in 20 years.
By doing Breathwork consistently I was able to get to the root of my biggest fears that stemmed from this incident in college. I was able to deal with it head on, through my own breath. Breathwork has given me clarity and connected me to me, someone I had been disconnected from for the longest time. In stripping a lot of this old football identity away, I discovered a more creative part of me I had long forgotten. My drawings and paintings are the physical representations of this part of me.
Now I’m grateful to have the opportunity to share this powerful tool with others as I believe it is the best tool we have available to us in making long lasting change and creating the life we’ve always dreamed of.